This BuLLsh*t...

These tramps @ work did NOT write me up for bein late on a day I told them I couldn't work!Are you serious?!? I bust my ass for this job that I hate... gettin disrespected daily, hurting my body, gettin paid less than what I deserve, not bein able to make ends meet, not bein allowed to change my schedule to get a 2nd job OR go back to school and you think I'm gonna accept that and still work there and be happy about it daily??? PLEASE! These hoes better be glad I have a child to feed or please believe I would dissapear on them and not care! I should tattoo a bullseye on my ASS for them to kiss... ugh. Hoes!

Protect me from what I want...

Again I say, I never blog.... but some things are just too big for my brain to hold and they have to get out... In my previous blog about relationships, you can see that no matter how in love I may be, I must not know how to be HAPPY and just live there... Im the type to overanalyze EVERYTHING and when you are the kind of person who has so many emotions about everything as it is, its really hard to know if the decisions that are being made are emotionally driven or if they are what really is logically best for me. That being said, I'm at a crossroads, do I stay where I am, and be happy with most of the situation, or do I take a deep breath and try to make myself a better woman for myself, my child and my potential future husband? The bible says that you must be one whole stable individual before you even think about being in a union with another person and I'm trying to work toward that goal... I refuse to be content with mediocrity, I know I was created for more than that but I cant focus on the fundamentals and juggle the luxuries as well... maybe Im trying to punish myself for being out of order and doing things outside of God's will, maybe I selfishly just want to do me for a minute, maybe Im afraid to allow this seedling to turn into a gorgeous garden of flowers... I dont know, but my heart is heavy and my head is spinning...

So I Never Use This Thing...

I never write on this blog... like ever... why? Bekuz I don't have a laptop and the one computer in the house is upstairs so I never take my lazy butt up the stairs... yea, I know... I'm a bum.

- I still work at Target ( I got slapped in the head by a special needs shopper the other day)

- Talia is now 6 months old and started trying to crawl on her knees yesterday (no more army crawlin for my lil inch worm)

- I cut my hair (look at the pic, yea I'm cute)

- I still have no car... Lord, you know the desires of my heart, so if you're hiding a bmw or a lexus for me I would like to have it soon please)

- I need a personal trainer, bekuz I need to lose like 15 pounds before the summer hits... just puttin that out there

-umm.... yea thats about it... Thank You and GoodDay...

p.s. on Easter it's my 1 1/2 year anniversary with Zyaire... Wow

Black Friday...

Sooo, this is the first year that I have worked on a "Black Friday", I'm usually at home avoiding all the idiots and yahoos on the road. Somehow, this year, I get stuck working at the bullseye no less... let me first say... if you are the person who camps outside of stores so you can be there at 5 or 6 in the morning GET A FRICKIN JOB YOU LOSER ASS FOOL! Its too cold for that! And who are you to complain that there are too many people in the store... your dumb ass wanted to come today, you deal with it! Dont get mad at me, I work here I HAVE to be here today, you can go home if you'd like... why do old people ask you a question and then tell you your answer is wrong? Dont ask me if you think you know all the answers "Inez" (IDK, sounded like an old lady's name)...I swear I got run over by more carts today by guests than I ever have by a kid I was shopping with or myself on accident. WHO INVENTED BLACK FRIDAY? SMH... never again...

Being in L.O.V.E.

Everybody wants to be in love. When you aren't in a relationship, you enjoy being single but you yearn for someone special to share quality time with and when you are in a relationship you cherish your relationship, but secretly miss your freedom as a single person.
I love having someone to talk to about everything, I love having one person that will consistently tell me how important I am to them. I love knowing that someone appreciates me for who I am and really sees me... but how selfish is all of that? Its like saying I love having someone to boost my ego... saying those "three little words" to someone else is like the most dangerous thing you can do. Makes you vulnerable, makes you available, gives someone else the feeling that you belong to them and they can do with you whatever they want... it relinquishes your freedom and you gain a leash, or collar. Everybody wants to be in love, everybody wants the freedom to do what they want, the reality, however, is that those two things don't go together...

Just a thought...

Officially the funniest thing I've EVER seen...

oh Lord... what was this poor child thinkin?

Hilarious... SNL has done it again

Justin Timberlake is a FOOL! hE SHOULD BE SAYIN "I'm a, I'm a a diva"